Why Would I?
It bothers me that I don't have a clever introduction to this post, but maybe it's just as well. I realize this one has the potential to make people tune me out. They might say, "she never has anything happy to say." "She doesn't appreciate all that she has." "She shouldn't share those things publicly." But here I am. So... Have I ever thought about suicide? Yes. I suppose most people have. You just thought about it as you read that sentence. Perhaps the more pointed question is: have I ever considered it? Yes. I won't go into details, and I will specify that it's not my ideal path (that's an explanation for a future post). It's sufficient for this story to say my thoughts were concerning enough at one point that my then-therapist recommended I go to the ER, just to be safe. There, the medical professionals asked me the always-tricky question: why? I don't know, but here are some possibilities. Because the good